First Post

First impressions are crucial in so many ways. Right now this first post is leaving an impression on you. You're making decisions and assumptions about me already and I haven't even done anything yet or said anything of any worth. But you're still thinking, assuming, drawing your own conclusions aren't you? Or is the proof in the pudding so to speak? I'm making assumptions about you despite you not even being remotely visible to me in any way, shape or form. I mean, I don't even know you exist yet so how can you have already made an impression on me?

It's disappointing when you consider how potentially judgemental we can be and how our first impressions shape our future feelings towards a person. This isn't always the case though as sometimes someone can let you down or put you in such an awkward position that you feel suffocated by consequences, the consequences of your potential actions or inactions. This happened to me on the weekend, but it's not really even about me, it's about what I know. My flatmate was with another girl on the weekend right in front of me in a club. He would've taken it further had not a quick slap to the head diverted his attention. Don't get me wrong, I'm pissed at him for what he did because I consider myself a friend of his girlfriend, but the thing that pisses me off the most is that he then attempted to buy my silence with one lousy drink. Surely my silence is worth more than one glass of house rum and coke. Surely I'm entitled to a seafood buffet or a fine bottle of Grange or something a hell of a lot more sizeable than a $5 glass of rum that Jack Sparrow would find difficult to swallow in exchange for my silence? But is that not a reflection of how consumed we are with ourselves in this world? A poor girl has unknowingly had her trust broken and I'm left mulling over the prospect of seafood delights whilst her boyfriend is too cheap to even try and cover his arse with a more fitting donation? Just where has the morality in all of this escaped to? We're all too consumed with our own self serving wants rather than being consumed with our own guilt when we do something wrong. We use self serving biases to prop ourselves up and create a false perception of who we are because we are all to fragile to see ourselves for what we really are, or for what others see us as. I know my impression has changed of my flatmate.